Intense

Came across this E-Ticket article on Len Bias. The story haunts me and leaves an awful feeling in my stomach. It scares me so much that my kids will make a poor choice/decision and I will lose them forever. I wish there was some way for us as people to fast forward in time and see how poor decisions would impact not only our lives but the lives of everyone around us. Would that help us? Would we change our decisions? I don't know. I just know that I want my kids to make the best decisions ever for their lives. I guess this is how God must feel. How hard must it be to be God? Having to watch while billions of people make poor decisions hurting their lives on earth. Even worse making decisions to purposely alienate God and even ultimately deciding on living eternity without God. The heartache God must face on a "daily" (as if time is relevant to God) basis. Ugh. This is just overwhelming to type. I just hope I do a good enough job as a dad. I love my kids too much for them to make bad decisions. Being a parent is so much harder than I could ever have imagined.